What’s even the point?
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Hey, I just want to say that I am not afraid of spiders anymore.
This is all what is left of us. I can only remember that once upon a time, there was US. And now, we are mere silhouettes, edges matching our outlines, but we no longer have meaning. This is US now, plain and flat as a memory. Backlit with hopes of finding something else to be whole again.
I am okay with this. With the silhouettes. We can walk in opposite directions now and I’d look back, wave, smile and hope that we might cross paths again next time.
The last 5 months have taught me so much. The last couple of months or so, I have laughed more, i have done more, i have enjoyed myself more and I finally feel free. And by being free, I can see now that constantly trying to fix us, to hang on to us, was the thing that’s been killing me slowly.
Maybe instead of loving you so hard I should have been myself for a while. I’ve always wanted so much for you. For both of us. So much more than what we had. More than being stuck with someone who feels stuck for quite a long time. I want you to feel free, too. I just had to realize that sometimes, some things can’t be fixed.
Dear, World. Love, Jenny. 