It’s PLE Day 2 of 4. Just finished the first subject today, while there’s a storm surge and fluctuating power supply. I worry about my exams, but I’m more scared of the weather. I think I have this cyclonophobia now. Even the sound of the rain scares the hell out of me.

Two more subjects to go today. And the other half after a 3-day break. I want all of these to be over. I want to go home.

I want to be somewhere else. Away from all these typhoons and exams and shit. Maybe somewhere I could watch maple leaves fall and pick up a special one and keep it just because.

SO I REALIZED MOST OF THE GIRLS I LIKE ARE THAI. I should probably go back to Bangkok, then. Haha 😂

1. Chutimon Chuengcharoensukying (Bad Genius, Happy Old Year, Sleepless society: Insomnia)

2. Chicha Amatayakul (Girl from Nowhere)

3. Lisa Manoban (Blackpink)

So gay, Jen. So gay. 😍😘❤️🏳️‍🌈

Dear LOVE,

I used to strongly believe in you. Even after being through hell before, I still chose to embrace you. Even if I knew that I’d probably get hurt again, multiple times. I always say that you, your romantic persona, is the greatest feeling of all.

But now, I don’t feel that way. I don’t want to believe in that anymore. Something big, something deep, has been taken away from me, and that is you.

I’d probably be fine not falling in love again. How could I do that if I don’t believe in it anymore?

I’m sorry, love. There’s no place for you here anymore. Still, thank you.

J

I know you stopped being my SUN, but I wish you’d stop being my DARK CLOUDS, too.

Please. Enough of days like this. 😔