Tonight I realized that the world is still made up of the same things that make me feel human, or alive. How it is moving, constantly changing, still amazes me.

Tonight I looked up and somehow the nightsky tells me, “It’s okay, it’s okay. Just carry on. You have to carry on.”

I wanted to ask the Moon why it still keeps on showing up. I wonder if it ever feels like wanting to stop going through the same orbit every single day, if at some point, it wishes to just disappear into some blackhole.

I looked up again and it just stared back at me. And I told myself, okay, it’s here. It’s still here. To light up our skies, to take care of the tides, to send warm messages, to tell us to carry on.

As I write, I am trying to understand the significance of amino acid side chain characteristics. And I realized I’m doing this for a good reason, for other people. I like this concept of paying things forward. I hope, whoever is reading this, you’d know that you’re still here, carrying things on, because you’re given a special purpose. Some purpose that might be that good domino piece that just spreads hope and tell one person to carry on, and then that person does the same thing to another person, and to the next one, and to many others.

This thought warms my heart. It is a good night. It is a good life. Let us all carry on.

I wish I have someone I can be silly with right now, and just do whatever we feel is light and fun and full of energy.

I miss being around someone who I can “dance it all out” like Meredith Grey and Christina Yang did in Grey’s Anatomy. Or maybe like these two crackheads. Well, I actually like Lisa and Rosé’s version more because they’re really bestfriends in real life.

What I want now may not be something relevant to what’s happening to the world, may not be as profound, but it would really make me happy. I’m just tired of the heavy stuff. Let’s be silly for now , shall we?

Color of the Year 2021 are my favorite colors! This is a good sign, right? Now I just have to be as brave and hardworking and kind, and just try to sustain it, then I guess I’d do so much better. 🙂

I’ll just dump these selfies here because I’m wearing my favorite colors. I really have a good feeling for the coming year, but let us not stop praying that next year, we get to heal, be safe and free from the pandemic, and that people will stop being blind followers of this administration so we could finally have a taste of a competent government.

I also like to share this quote I randomly found in the internet today:

Have a happy, safe, kind year, everyone. :*

Last saturday, I went to Lola’s house to attend the novena and mass because it’s Our Lady of Guadalupe’s Feast Day. It’s an annual family thing. We promised Lola that we will continue having these 9-day novenas even if she isn’t with us anymore.

After the mass, we served dinner to those present in the novena. And then 2 teenage girls approached me while I was eating.

Girl1: hi ate, pwede ka raw po ba niya maging friend? (Points to girl 2)

Girl2: smiled, didn’t say anything

Girl1: the other day ka pa raw niya nakita, nahiya lang lumapit. Ano po name niyo? Pwede po makipagfriends?

Halos ibuga ko yung iniinom kong juice. Haha. I said, sure kayo? (hahaha) well, my name’s Jen. At pano ba makipagfriends sa inyo? They asked for my number but I said no and gave them my pang-artistang fb account.

And then they left. I didn’t know if I was flattered or embarrassed. Hahaha. Gaaahd. Teenagers. Yun na ba market ko ngayon? Uggh. Lord, wala ka po bang isisend na pwede kong iconsider talagang makipagfriends? Hahaha. Ayoko na ng fans! Jooooke. But I hope she/they won’t add me or chat me na lang because i don’t want to be breaking hearts, it’s Christmas for pete’s sake. Hahahaha. Char lang. ✌️

Ewan! Kamot ulo na lang. 😉😝🤣😂