1. a zero desire on almost everything would come just when your to do checklist is as long as a rolled 2-ply toilet paper.

2. technology doesn’t know shit. power outage does. and when you need to get things done, power fails and so you cant get any help from no-shit tech. but isn’t “tech” the nickname of our Electricity Distribution Company? oh shit.

3. for the little whinies, come on, even sadness has to sleep.

4. when you cross your finger, what do you hope for? for “that thing” to happen or not? maybe we have to standardize this one: middle finger crossed over the forefinger, you hope for “it” to happen. otherwise, it’s the forefinger who’d cross over. how about that?

5. do you have friends who are in love with your hurt? the kinds who rub things on your face? if you do, think about why you’re still keeping them.

6. when the trap door opens that means….you’ve hit bottom or passed out…..and then that also means that you forgot about that little buddy again. uh, liver? our common friend, remember?

7. lets make this world forget about being fun-repellent. lets try harder if all else fail.

8. if you haven’t had a good amount of uninterrupted sleep in days, do you think you need a brain break? i think i do. i’m tired of having short power naps all night long.

9. You can’t paint the town red when you’re feeling blue. try a monochrome rainbow, shade of of-course-you-know-what-already. duh.

10. So many thoughts are racing around in my brain, and it’s more than my head can consume. but for some thoughts and details that i can keep and remember, i’m telling you, i can even regurgitate the emotions.

11. if you see kaye, ask her who the hey invented sembreak and smash ’em! if you say its sembreak, yey!, id say: no, seriously? get out of my dream!

12. and if I hear someone say, “Tama” one more time in that way (as in tomooo), I’m going to punch them in the throat. I’ve heard it a hundred fckin times today. buy some noice timing, guys. geez.

lately i’ve been wallowing into a lot of battle.

 i’ve never been afraid of getting sick. i get sick all the time so i got used to it, and i always think it’ll pass. i take a rest, have meds, then i’d feel better. but this time, i got scared. maybe because it’s taking a while before i really get well. and it feels different this time, how i feel so weak for days even if i take meds and sleep all the time. i feel like i’ve been ill for the first time. and it gives me a not-so-good-scary feeling. but then of course, i try not to think about it too much. because i know it wont help.

i’m also trying not to be too hard on myself now. i try to do things at work. i try hard to bring myself back on track. it’s the only way i know now — try hard. i just want to be me again. i don’t want to feel low anymore. and i’d be praying again. maybe He’d finally give me a poke and bring me back to how i used to be.

loads. lags.

it’s okay.

love is here. i’d be making faces at life again.

1. some days roll like a tire which a kid strikes with a stick to keep it rolling. some days are just a drag. and some days, i just want to french kiss a barf bag.

2. i only have two words for this world where earthlings have to conform to everything: YOU SUCK.

3. whoever made jealousy, i get your point. but i hope you let the brain process some sensible facts more, before you send the signal to be jealous like a mad dog.

4. for those people who blab about how madly in-love they are with each other but the whole world thinks otherwise, uhm….go figure!

5. there’s a lewd woman on the loose. what’s the stat now? pfft. she doesn’t even know her dougs are keeping records of their phone conversations. nasty earthlings. another barf bag episode around here.

7. i’m working my a$$ out everyday, why don’t you pay me like a big time wh%re?

8. my current job makes me care a lot about my reputation. so don’t mind number seven.

9. i have a serious question. what makes you a person?

10. i have another question. why did you answer my question seriously?