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List 0363 — December 4, 2010

List 0363

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today is another different day.

1. i woke up very early. because i had to walk you to school since you’re a little bit anxious of your first day. like a kid on his very first school day or that kid who transferred to a new school. if it wouldn’t be funny or awkward or something, i should have stayed and sit in your class. hahaha.

2. i haven’t been to graduate school for quite some time now. my masteral life got stagnant for a semester and i don’t know how i am going to get my groove back. but then here i go, GI Joe, i went to the office and filled out the form for our comprehensive exam. Got two weeks before the schedule. oh please. tell me what to do.

3. on my way from Polangui to University of nueva Caceres, i saw five red beetle (vox) cars with exactly the same tint. (pendong five times goes to you, reader). 😀

4. three hundred ten. i paid 310 (for the compre exam) and got a change of 310 (from my bill for lunch).

5. lunch couldn’t get any weirder because i shared a table with a stranger. a stranger who is really pissed of her brother for spilling cola on her clothes. i didn’t say anything. i don’t think talking or even starting a conversation with a pissed stranger is a good idea. nah uh.

6. i bought a new earphone with a really great bass booster. yey. 😀

7. i enjoyed my bus ride. some kid rocked on. haha. he was about 11 years old and he was selling sweet corn. he saw one passenger who was already eating corn (which she bought from another corn vendor), and he said out loud: “naku, ate! dapat di yan binili mo, eto sakin masarap, matamis at hindi matigas. yan, naku makakasama sa pustiso mo yan ‘te”. (ahahaha). then after a few minutes when our bus was about to leave again, he got off the bus (since nobody bought corn from him) and he shouted: “shet! siyeeeeeeeet kayo!” hahaha. tsk.

8. i also enjoyed our nth walk through the safe roads. 🙂

9. dinner was really good. haha. thanks for the happiness fries. 🙂

10. i also love that blowing-thru-the-straw-and-get-sprinkled-on-with-cola fight after dinner. haha. i really had fun. 🙂

11. and last but not the least, kisses. stolen and not and imaginary. hahaha. you kissed me in front of my students this morning (waha?). you kissed me before i went to Naga in front of manong driver. i kissed you in the cooperative store in front of the vendor. you kissed me in front of another manong tryke driver under the moonlight. and i showed you how you can fake a kissing scene in front of the world. hahaha. (it’s ok. i may embarrass myself but it’s worth it. i made you laugh again. i’m double happy whenever i make you laugh).

Dear Lithium — December 3, 2010

Dear Lithium

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Lithium,

today’s mid-part was like very huge blocks of ice i would like to thaw.

that is why i am writing in space.
though i know the day ended up with love again,
i still feel like i have to melt away some of those moments.
i will be more careful next time.
i will do whatever it takes for that stupid-self episode to never happen again.
because you do not deserve it.
i don’t want you getting hurt.
thank you.
for still sticking with me today.
even if i acted like the reverse of your favorite person.
thank you for letting the bad moments pass.
i know i have to make it up to you.
that is why i’m going to bed now.
so i could see you tomorrow.
and i’d be there on your first day of your life’s other battle.
this is me for some days. you should’ve hated me but you didn’t.
that tells me i am really loved.
i will always be loving you,too.
and i will try harder.
for you.
for us.
MIXED Nuts — November 27, 2010

MIXED Nuts

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moods/happenings/whatsoever on the 27th day of November:

1. i woke up with a human blanket wrapped around me. it was raining this morning but i felt so warm. i hope it happens everyday. nah, not the raining part, of course.

2. i ate overwhelming work for breakfast. heavy. heavier breakfast. really bad for my health.

3. today i’m a floater. my thoughts flew me to places i shouldn’t be. another journey to the pursuit of dopeness.

4. i tried balancing two cups of noodles on a plate. they ended up on the canteen floor.

5. the office couch kept telling me i am in the wrong profession. that’s what it said to me after giving it some warm free hugs.

6. i tried setting up a mathematical formula (for my grading system). it looks like it’s correct, but it doesn’t really work…and so i think it’s flawed even if it really isnt.

7. i saw my college transcript of records again. hahaha. what a beautiful mess.

8. i’m tired but i’m happy. i’m annoyed (of some people) but i’m mushy.

9. this order. disorder.

10. i still feel ecstatic because of our own version of sweet-corny jokes. and its just because of sweet you that i am excusing the world of its annoying behavior. otherwise, i might’ve left a comment on that selfish-bitter post.

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goodnight, earthlings. time to hit the bed. tomorrow is sunday and i still have half a ton’s work to do. phew, the life of Jen.

Not Again — November 26, 2010

Not Again

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i’m writing this post with only 60% of myself awake. i don’t know. there are just tons of work to do that i feel like a cloud floating on a stormy sky, and i don’t know till when i could be just a floating cloud or should i turn into a storm cloud soon and burst like a mad giant water hose.

stress. anxiety. the world never runs out of those. tell me why.
i cant focus. i wish it’s christmas break already. sigh. i. need. to. breathe.
PHEW! — November 22, 2010

PHEW!

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today i said in class: mind your own booger! 😀

maybe they were just picking on the guy who is not in uniform. i’m talking about that booger thing. but i wont spill it out here. its gonna be a secret between me and my BSMT students. and because of that i can say, today, i had fun in class!

well it wasn’t just all fun. today i started to feel that finally, i am picking up the pieces and bits of passion for teaching which was shattered in the past couple of semesters. and i guess i have to thank my technology students for that.

there were other reasons why i was happy today:

1. i found courage to work hard again.

2. i learned not to care about bad things i cannot undo and i learned to make or use them as motivation instead.

3. i am punk again. i get the feeling that master yoda loves me a lot. [eeks. haha].

4. i got better in taptap revenge.

5. i feel so loved and secured, so happy and gay and i really feel ecstatic! 😀

that’s it for today. i have to hit the bed now. goodnight, everyone! 🙂

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oh, you know what? i have a matress with a very big print of spongebob. i find it so nickelodeon-ish. i feel like i am a cartoon. 🙂