Tonight I realized that the world is still made up of the same things that make me feel human, or alive. How it is moving, constantly changing, still amazes me.

Tonight I looked up and somehow the nightsky tells me, “It’s okay, it’s okay. Just carry on. You have to carry on.”

I wanted to ask the Moon why it still keeps on showing up. I wonder if it ever feels like wanting to stop going through the same orbit every single day, if at some point, it wishes to just disappear into some blackhole.

I looked up again and it just stared back at me. And I told myself, okay, it’s here. It’s still here. To light up our skies, to take care of the tides, to send warm messages, to tell us to carry on.

As I write, I am trying to understand the significance of amino acid side chain characteristics. And I realized I’m doing this for a good reason, for other people. I like this concept of paying things forward. I hope, whoever is reading this, you’d know that you’re still here, carrying things on, because you’re given a special purpose. Some purpose that might be that good domino piece that just spreads hope and tell one person to carry on, and then that person does the same thing to another person, and to the next one, and to many others.

This thought warms my heart. It is a good night. It is a good life. Let us all carry on.

I wish I have someone I can be silly with right now, and just do whatever we feel is light and fun and full of energy.

I miss being around someone who I can “dance it all out” like Meredith Grey and Christina Yang did in Grey’s Anatomy. Or maybe like these two crackheads. Well, I actually like Lisa and Rosé’s version more because they’re really bestfriends in real life.

What I want now may not be something relevant to what’s happening to the world, may not be as profound, but it would really make me happy. I’m just tired of the heavy stuff. Let’s be silly for now , shall we?