Hi.

i woke up feeling neutral today. Not sad, not also so glad because i had to go to work now since I didn’t go yesterday because i always have Monday blues. It’s true, you can check my time sheet last week and i wasn’t in last monday, too.

Anyway, yesterday i sent out a letter telling you guys that i am sad, as if there is no man sad before & after me. In my younger years, when i get sad, i write poems to let it out but as an adult, an immature distracted adult, i cant do poems anymore so i resorted to other stuff like binge watching tv series (my faves are/were game of thrones, breaking bad, newsroom, orange is the new black, fringe, jane the virgin and suits).

For some reason, i craved for ice cream yesterday. They say eating ice cream makes you feel better. But i wasn’t really wanting ice cream to make me feel happy or whatnot, i just want to eat ice cream because i can’t remember the last time i ate one. I like ice cream (who doesn’t?) but i am lactose intolerant so i dont really get the chance to enjoy it (and those milk tea’s that my friends have almost everyday). So yesterday, i got up from my monday-blues-stricken bed and asked Jake the Dog to come with me and look for Nestlè kitkat ice cream (well i love kitkat, so…yeah). But when we got in the supermarket they only have those temptations chever ice creams so we got one.

Jake the Dog & I went home, grabbed dinner and started eating chips and the whole pint after. It got cocoa seeds in it that at first i thought were coffee beans. I havent eaten a lot like last night. I think that was my own version of food comma — i was literally just sitting at the corner, almost-zoning out, feeling very very sleepy but not really falling asleep. Have you ever felt anything like that after eating a lot? Haha. Geeez.

Anyway, i went to bed relatively early last night because i did feel so sleepy. At least it’s a different experience. I dont have to cry myself to sleep or exhaust myself just to doze off. Then i woke up today, not sad, not feeling blue, neutral–but better than not wanting to go to work.