i realized that everyday since i met you, you are like my own version of Mr. Sun who have just woken up, Mr. Sun who is so much vibrant, and Mr. Sun who leaves sleepy in his eyes. my anti and post merridian. Mr. Sun in apparent solar time, the midday, the midnight and everything in between all those mid’s.

 yes. everyday is like that with you. you’re like my childhood day’s favorite color. yellow, which reminds me of many things —sunshine, warmth, happiness, fun, friendship, intelligence, Mardi Gras, summer, lemons, easter, autumn, electricity, hope, optimism, imagination, curiosity, and love. you are my little miss sunshine.

 you are also my driving force. and by force i don’t just mean any influence that causes a free body to undergo a change in speed, direction or shape.[haha, you know we both know physics but we’re not the type who have fun to actually dig it]. you are my every-part-of-the-day’s good force. the gentle push in my life, especially when things are getting rough, when trying to catch up with responsibilities seems to be a never-ending gain-on game, when work is an energy drainer, and when life is such a horrible bully. you are my own pull-ey. you pull me to a hug just when i need it — when i’m on the verge of growing my horns again and be the monster i once was. when i lose the jedi in me, when i’m about to let go of my grip to my self and dreams, when i’m scared of those spiders, when i am sick and cry like a baby, when i make silly faces, when i am the corniest man alive, when i dance that oldies dance, and when i say how much i love you. you are my favorite and only block and tackle piece. you’re the unique pulley that pulls me but never knew the mechanism of release.

 i have said this in various ways and forms, but you are really the best part of me and all the other personalities i consciously, and unconsciously keep.

i didn’t lose count of our mushy days. its just that every day is, and there’s no point in counting something that i believe has no end. that’s why i’m greeting you “happy nth mushy day” now. (._.)

i love you beyond belief. don’t ask me why again because i said ‘beyond belief‘. haha. i would probably use up all the memory alloted by this blog and you’d find out that the virtual space they have is way insufficient to write down all my reasons.

there.

you can kiss me now. 😀