Dearest Jenski,

Happy, happy Birthday! 🙂

For some reason, the past seem like a blur already. After I came home, my immediate past has been filled with concerns related to my job, my students… While I give myself the chance to look back at the past and smile at the memories of friendships, I don’t dwell on it anymore. I just want to look forward. Teaching has given me a new purpose…

Jenski, when I found out you were teaching, I was immensely proud of you! When you tell me your little stories and share with me your thoughts about your students and teaching, I can imagine you being happy and content.

While the mysterious, almost “dark” Jen was also special, I think I like this Jenski better. I can feel the happiness in your words, in your thoughts… Before, in your low moments, your pain, your sadness was obvious that sometimes it scared me. However, there was that part of you that is shining brightly…

You’ve read “Kitchen” by Banana Yoshimoto? You’re like one of those characters there… you managed to lift yourself up despite the darkness you’ve been through because of something inside of you … maybe it was the beauty of your poems which gave me the assurance that you will be OK. Don’t ask me why. I cannot explain it myself and that was the reason why I encouraged you to keep on writing… I look forward to that 1st published book of Jen’s poems.

In the meantime, enjoy what you’re doing. I always tell my friends that people seek for that fountain of youth but I have found it in teaching…I always feel there’s so much love around me, within me, because I teach. While I may not look young anymore (too many white hairs!), inside of me, I feel young. And my dear beautiful Jenski, who dances like a pro (alternative 3rd career!), will always stay young at heart… I cannot imagine you growing old! 🙂

I just wish you ALL THE BEST!!! Continue to be happy and continue to keep in touch with your Ate Rica, OK? I miss you and I’ll be praying extra for you during your special day. Take care! Love you! Mwah!

Hugs,

Ate Rics