and so they talk about you now.

i’ve thought about you a lot of times before. there was a point when you were my obsession. i’ve been trying to hold your hand but you never held back…how come you didn’t want me, then? how come you didn’t even care to tell me when you’re going to love me back? because then i knew that in this lifetime, you would…

i’ve tried.

several times i asked you to take me with you but you never did. you just stared and gave me a polite smile that appeared like a message, which says “not now. not yet.”

but that was before. after trying so much harder, i gave up. and i moved on. i forgot about you. i’ve relearned things which reminded me of living again.

but now, they’re talking about you again.

i saw your name. *DEATH. and it felt like seeing that bicycle i never had, which i have outgrown and never cared about at all. the feelings i have for you now has gone numb. not that i forgot about you finally giving me a chance. i just dont have any feelings towards you now. or shall i say im not longing for you anymore. even if you tell me that i wont have any choice.

for a lot of reasons, i stopped doing stupid things to catch your attention. i might sound ironic now but it’s you who caught mine. and it’s just because they are talking about you again. no more. no less. no nothing. just a post.

P.S.
*i warn you not to get flattered by this even a bit.